It was about time.

Finally. 1st of May.
And my problem is finally solved this morning, after having such a bad mood and talking really angrily to everyone around me. I'm better now, thanks.

But everything now will be put in order. They have to be. It's a new start. I know that I haven't reached -not even close- to my goal weight but this will change too. Last month was all about staying steady, wasn't really doing sth good for me.
I try every single day to keep out some crazy thoughts.. I wish it could be easier but oh,well..


So today was a bright shinny day and me and my friend went to a restaurant. I was really nervous cause she is kinda overweight and she likes fried things etc. So we were looking at the menu and decided to eat seafood. So she chose the fried calamari and I agreed with it cause I like that too. Then I suggested grilled octopus but she didn't want and she suggested fried shrimps. I'm not eating fried shrimps!! I like them but they are small little things full of fried unhealthy oil, all you get is a bunch of cals. So I though great we'll only have the calamari and the salad.
But nooo, then she changed her mind and told me why don't we eat meat? So finally I had grilled chicken with some french fries. Omg I did not have had fries since ages so they tasted soo good! *Guilty* And then she was like "oh, the chicken was not good? why don't you eat it?" ..I ate fries and some wine so I'm not eating the chicken too, duh!!


But I had a great time. We are not close enough with her, and we got to spend the day together and it was nice after all. :)


I'm now drinking boiling water -instead of tea- and I really want a long bath.. Tmrrw's finally the new start and of course I'm starting at 57 all over again..

so super thinspo picture for the new start:
(love you, girLs*)