Unemployed Life

Okay, so it's the second week of job hunting and oh, boy is it exhausting. For some reason, I truly believed it wouldn't be so hard. It's not that I'm being cocky, it's just that I worry too much. I am inside my head thinking I have no job, no friends, no boyfriend. And it's true, more or less, I currently don't have any of them. But I will be fine; I think.

I panic easily. I had a good cry on Monday when everything felt like falling apart. On Wednesday I decided to put my life together. Thursday morning found me at a HOT Pilates class trying to focus on myself. I feel yoga or pilates always helps me stop thinking while focusing on myself and my progress. If that makes sense. 

It's an expensive hobby but luckily all studios have introductory offers. I have four more hot yoga/pilates classes to go there. After that, there's a 40 pounds for 20 consecutive days of yoga in another salon. I'll do that. 

Keeping the balance on the mat, 

helps me keep a balance on my life.

The adult life

I had the most amazing holiday. The one where you clear your mind off of everything. The one where you eat amazing food, home cooked food, coffee and desserts under the sunshine, wine after-hours. The one where you connect with your family and you appreciate all the time you get to have with them. The one when you visit your best friends and party together, speak about clothes and life changes, and organise a christmas trip with them.

The one where two days later, you feel like shit. Something is missing and you are not sure what. I had my first (second) interview. That means a face to face one. I didn't like it, and haven't heard back. I had a talk with a recruiter. I have to convince people that all my life choices up to this moment where made to get *this* specific job.

That's not easy, even for me; a diplomatic liar.

*current mood*