All seems blue-rr

There's a time when you amaze yourself of how put-together you look. Summer is here, yet I am on a 24/7 schedule, while almost everybody else is vacationing. Lab work, a job, diet, some boys, an Asos haul.
Most of the days you will find me smiling and telling nice things to everyone; truth is, I am scared of myself. I don't like this normal thing, I feel uncomfortable. Maybe this is all new, so I'm staying strong. In other news, one kilo is lost this week, yet I refused to go to the beach today. My ED is really coming back the days when I'm so freaking busy(when was really gone though?), which is weird but also very helpful. This is the time when I'm loosing the weight, you'll see.

With the wonderful news that I passed a very difficult exam last June, I have only 5 more for August. Five more, and I take my fucking degree. Well I can't graduate even if I pass everything this August (non achievable thing), cause on March I'm moving to London for three months for practise work. And I'm so looking forward to it. SO MUCH.

the lovely India Rose

blurry kisses,
annamaria *

p20

I was gone. Did you notice? I don't remember when was the last time I posted, but I wouldn't bother to check on that either. Long time has passed; exams have passed, although they were an epic fail. My birthday were okay, I guess. They were, to put it straightforward, a happy birthday. No more, no less. Certain people were missing from it, but it's okay. Everything's okay, I've grown up.

Did I tell you, I met someone. One who could possibly take my mind off this fucked up situtation I had put myself into. We met at Starbucks, where we were both studying for exams. He's sweet. But. There's always a but, it seems. He figured out very soon that we are boyfriend/girlfriend. So soon that I couldn't even breathe when I realised it. I did the normal thing though: talked to him. We said we'll keep in touch and discuss it in August, when we will meet again. It looks normal, and it scares the fuck out of me. I decided to role-play 'normal' this semester, just to see what happens.

I also should have you know I lack enthousiasm lately.
Other than that, I am well.
And possibly back.