Bounce.

I use my scale every single morning lately.. And now I'm a kilo down. Luckily. Of course that's no good cause today I binged.. like, a lot. Then felt sooo guilty and did 30 minutes of yoga and 3.15 mins of excercising rope (well that's how long "toyfriend- david guetta" lasts) and got really sweatty.

So now with all the stupid caffeine I fear of getting visible cellulite. This is the one thing I'm proud to be able to handle. My legs are really toned because until I was like 6 I always walked on my tip toes and have been excercising ever since. Of course I'm not happy with them -at all!! I personally think they look fat, along with my whole body, and that's why I'm so freaked out. So I looked at my butt at the mirror and just pushed it with my hand. DISASTER! It's not visible yet but by June it will be visible by satellites if I don't do sth fast.


Hmm..other news

I found out my term exams end on June 18th so on the 23rd I'm flying to London!!! I'm so much excited! I always have great time there, and of course lots of shopping :)
So now I really have to get that scale moving..summer 2010 has to be stress free and -if I may add- AWESOME!! haha.. apparently this summer lots of styles are in, and I already picked mine so I need to look fab *


Bills. That's another thing that bothers me lately. It's not that big deal,I'm a money saver too, so it's not that I don't have the money to pay them. It's just that a have to run to the post office and they surely don't come all together..So now I have phone and water for Monday.


Oh I could really use your opinion here.. Being so freaked out about blowing up like a balloon till my period comes I'm thinking about taking some laxatives. Of course I have never needed any of these cause I don't have such problem so I was thinking if they're stronger pills and less strong for this.. Idk I guess that will be me looking around for a new drug store cause I don't want to get anyone suspicious if I go and buy a pack of laxatives and an anti cellulite cream. Right?


*come, come baby, come be my toyfriend, let me play with you*
(oh and btw a freaked out post about boyfriends is coming up.. I've been thinking a lot lately but did not want to ruin this one with my crazy thoughts..so be prepared and I'm soo sorry in advance LOL)