..even though everyone around me seems to want to see the bad side of me, I won't let it come out.
I won't.
I do not desire my last year's self, even though it's easier to get along with people being a mean, arrogant person. At least for me. I surprise myself every day with how good I can be, how calm and how love (not much) I can pretend to give to the world around me.
But still. I cannot feel full. I cannot feel people love me, I can't accept any kind of emotion -not even anger. APATHY.
Of course today I can feel full. I can feel so full with a chicken sandwich, an ice cream, some cookies and a strawberry tart. Ew.
Anyway, I'm not going to "cry" and spend the rest of this post apologising about it. I'm not proud of myself today so I don't want to talk about it anymore.
So my mum comes next wednesday and for 4 days. Reason: to cook me stuff for my exams. Hahaha! She would never let her sick daughter without food during exams!!! The thing now is that I have to throw away everything she made me last September from the freezer, and that's a lot..
I'm going to the gym in about an hour for my tae bo class. Now that the weather is good I'm walking to and from the gym instead of taking the bus.
Oh, last thing in this blah blah boring post: me and a friend of mine (actually the one with the stupid bf) are having a party on Friday at a club. Cause on the 21st it's a celebration of our names so we have to do it together!!
That sounds like fun
*(and a little spooky, cause he is going to come..)
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