Saturday, 27 August 2011

Warning.

You know when sometimes you look at yourself, your life and everything is not what you wanted them to be? And though you know what it takes to change all that, and you know exactly what you want to do to have fun, something's holding you back?

It's Saturday. And I only got outside of the house to pick up laundry. Fucking pathetic. If you don't study during exams you might as well go out and have a little fun, then maybe you will get on with your revising. But you know, I would love a drink right now. Instead I'm supposed to sleep in 30 minutes. Lol. My sleep is so fucked up, I take pills to sleep and yet I wake up feeling so damn tired and lazy. I'm tired. I got off the beach to study genetics this August and this is So frustrating. I'm so stressed cause of what happened last August and everything is pushing me to "succeed". I keep eating to keep myself at the desk, keep smoking to prevent from eating and keep biting my nails to prevent from smoking. But you know, I would love a drink right now. Oh, yes, I've already said that.

This year I came with two things in mind. Get skinny and keep smiling. And I bet you all missed these kind of posts. One minute I'm all happy and jolly and the next one I get so bitchy and evil and depressed. Pick any two and this is me.
New followers, I hope this is not a preview of what's coming.

damn, this shirt.
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10 comments:

  1. Anonymous27 August 2011 at 23:47

    You'll get there :)

    ---AK

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  2. Katelyn28 August 2011 at 00:37

    I know exactly how you feel. Trust yourself :)

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  3. 000028 August 2011 at 03:01

    I feel the same way a lot of the time

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  4. H28 August 2011 at 04:49

    I get the same way pretty often! You'll get through it :)

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  5. haze28 August 2011 at 08:41

    Stress, stress. *sigh*
    Hope things will get really better soon for you. xx

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  6. A.beautiful.mess28 August 2011 at 14:14

    I definitely feel like something is holding me back. I feel so out of control.
    And I feel permanently stressed and anxious.

    I try be happy and positive in my posts but sometimes it is difficult.

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  7. Anonymous28 August 2011 at 19:41

    Darling, I hope you feel very happy soon. :)
    As I sit and do homework, all I want is a bottle of beer. ha. School screws with my head..
    But anyway, I really do hope you start sleeping well.
    You have my love.



    LOVE!

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  8. Bonnie29 August 2011 at 01:26

    I feel like we are the same person. I experience this on a near-daily basis.

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  9. RainCooper29 August 2011 at 03:34

    Exactly how I'm feeling at the moment. X

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  10. JANE_DOE29 August 2011 at 06:32

    love the goal. skinny & smiling. Im trying that out too.. we'll get it!

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