Issues*

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! Mine was kinda blah, studying mostly. And eating little more than I was supposed to. This is what happens when you decide to eat with company right?

So we have always talked about real girl thinspo. Well, I have found mine. Let's call her mary. She is this girl I met last year just for a day and she had been talking to me ever since. I didn't even remember her name but she always said hello to me with a big smile. Weird, I thought, as I didn't even remember her name.

Last week I got to know why.. We sat on the same table studying and she admitted the only thing she remembered about me (when she asked my name) was my ex. I thought I didn't hear her well. How the hell did she know with who I was last year? He is from a different university and we didn't last long anyways.. But she told me that she was couple with Di's best friend the same time I was with Di. She is not anymore. Of course neither am I.

Wow that means she knows how crazy I was.. oh I felt so shocked and embarrassed. Of course I spent my studying day thinking that she is so pretty and skinny and perfect that there was not even a single thing to compete her at the "boy's talk" (of course there is such thing!).

She kept telling me how great and nice Di is and I kept thinking they would make a nice couple, and wondering if he liked her better than me (even though I don't get jealous when it comes to relationships, I get jealous when it comes to skinny). I know I am such a crazy person. And I bet she knows how we broke up. In case you want to know too, I broke up with him but thought he broke up with me. It took me three days to realise that. I know I am THAT retarded. He has been single ever since and I have been blaming myself for acting so freaking childish. ENd.

So she is my thinspiration. She is an athlete too, skinny and effortlessly beautiful.. And what am I?

JUST JEALOUS ..and from now on, more & more suspicious for unknown girls :p

oh, and determined NEVER to eat again. Damn.

why oh, why did she have to remind me

of him during exam period?