Saturday, 18 February 2012

Sunny day

What do you do when everything around you seems pointless? Well for a start, complain for about a week through your blog, writing suicidal posts and eat like a happy (not) hippo. But then , THEN, it's time to act. 

Last night I forgot every problem for a while and locked myself in my bedroom. Safe and sound, I tried to refocus on my goals. Went online and looked up Master's Courses (MSc) at some London Universities. Tried to imagine living there, studying and shopping at my dream city, living far away from my problems. It worked.
I checked UCL and Imperial for IVF (in vitro fertilization) courses and some Neurobiology ones and my mood began to change. I also searched some inspirational bikini photos and realised that 3 months from now I will be running around in a bikini. And these legs are not acceptable. Nor this stomach. But I have the time to work on that, if I stay calm and focused.
One more thing that makes me happy is that I can take a Neurobiology class this semester, despite my low grades. I must focus on my studies because I am aiming very high ranked universities. But London is London, and I will fight for it.

I also did a little shopping search. I am in love with this necklace. This morning I went to the coffee place and got an XL cappuccino (which isn't that big, like a Starbucks Grande) and I am planning on eating oranges today. I have so much to study and it's only been a week of classes. 

nevertheless, smile mode: ON

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3 comments:

  1. Anafly18 February 2012 at 17:14

    I want to to move to London too.
    Desperately.
    That's where my familyt us.
    That necklace is gorgeous btw.
    SOrry for not a more exciting comment but I'm drunk so yeah.
    I love you
    xxx

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  2. Kandie19 February 2012 at 01:55

    I too plan on moving to London. Last time I was there I cried because it felt so much like home.

    I'm glad to read that you are feeling better today. Making plans makes me feel better too.

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  3. Peridot (G+P)19 February 2012 at 11:13

    Oh goodness, bikinis! I have a brand new one-piece suit that I have NEVER worn, since I inflated just after pruchasing it and it no longer fits. This summer I have also not worn a single short skirt or pair of shorts, even at the gym. Last year I wasn't in anything shorter than knee-length! Fucking meds, if they didn't keep me sane I'd stop them and drop this fat quicksmart.

    I hope the positive upswing continues. Love you!

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