February already

My allergy thing bothers me to sleep. I know, I know, the whole weekend I was complaining that I couldn't wake up because of the pills, but now I cannot sleep. Talking about general moodiness oh god.
Tomorrow I am giving my last exam. To fuck with that, I say. This has been my worst exam period ever. I really need the one week break after that. Not that I have big plans or something. I would ideally (since I'm not travelling abroad this time) close myself to a spa for two whole days and just escape from the world. But, even though I managed to save 400 euro this month, I am trying to save some money for the future (200 every month to another account is pretty doable). Yesterday I tried to think of my future and just couldn't. My mind was convinced that this is all I am and will be capable of; staying to this stupid town with small minded people, trying to finish university. I got scared because usually my dreams are big. (...moving to London, a master's degree, travelling around the world, a beautiful small flat with big windows, etc).

Two words. Panic attack. My stress is beyond awful and I need to relax. I am planning on taking 100 euro from these saving and buying the perfume, a fashion magazine along with a latte on Friday and chill at the Starbucks far away from my house, where no one can find me easily. Yes, that's what I will do. I will probably visit Zara too, if there's any money left. I didn't shop on Sales but why would I? My ass falls by the minute and my abs soon won't be visible.

I need to relax. Seriously this day...