So here's what happened: 9 a.m english exams, feeling rather sleepy, 9.15 english exams, feeling quite dizzy, 9.35 english exams, couldn't quite breathe, 9.55 english exams, standing up with my half empty (or half full?) answer sheet, leaving the classroom almost fainting on a chair right outside. Bad luck?
Tell me why I deserve this? Tell me why every time I try to loose some weight I end up fainting somewhere, suffer from insomnia, get distracted so fucking easily and I'm not EVEN starving myself. Tell me why I had today to start new pills? Why I had to lie to my parents I passed my exam so they don't worry and come over and stay here forever feeding me until I blow up?
anemia. I know the stuff.
I don't care. Really. This time is not about trying, it's about succeeding. I take my pills this time. It's not fair. Really not. Gym time is coming, classes start, I have things to do and I'll make it even if that means I carry a bad of pills in my purse and eat meat and an orange juice every day. But hey, if that's the case these will be the only thing I'd have. That IS fair.
*yesterday I gave my lunch to a cute white dog at university and my dinner to a pregnant black dog wandering at the park and chewing to paper. (of course I couldn't eat after two glasses of wine. yes, no more sodas on drink's night. I love alcohol, I'm having alcohol, THE END)
It made me so happy :)
Oh No! Make sure to take your iron pills, and try to eat loads of spinach - it has lots of iron! I have the opposite problem. High iron runs in my family, so mine is always great. The blood bank loves my blood...
ReplyDeleteThanks for commenting on my post. :) I know, I'm so excited for this concert! It's my old favorite 90's band's lead singer - damn they broke up. I'd better look great, I've planned to marry this guy since I was 15. Current marital status is no object... LOL
It's not that I'm antisocial, I know SO MANY people and I actually am out a lot, it's just a MOM stuff and not any FUN stuff. So the last time I had any real "let's go get trashed and dance of the tables" fun was over a year ago. Sad.
You don't deserve this. You deserve health- SO PLEASE TAKE YOUR PILLS!!! please nourish yourself with good healthy food. You can still lose weight with small portions of good healthy food! You're gorgeous, please take care of yourself sweety xxx
ReplyDeletep.s. I'v nominated you for the Honest Scrap Award :)
ReplyDeletePleeeeeeeeeease try and be healthy as you can while trying to lose weight... I know that was just a major hypocritcial statement haha.
ReplyDeleteJust make sure you take your pills, take multi-vitamins, fish oil and eat food that has lots and LOTS of iron like mushrooms, avocados and spinach, which was suggest above.
Love Anafly
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A friend/support would be great :)
ReplyDeleteBut I don't completely agree. I think it is possible to somewhat recover. To what degree depends on the person and their willingness to, but there are strong women everywhere who have managed.
But you're right about the lifestyle being one that sticks. Once you start living this way and finding people who understand and encourage you, it's hard to take a step towards what's "normal"- it looses its appeal.
Take care of yourself. At least try and eat a bit while you still have finals, the stress can really weigh you down (metaphorically speaking). Theres always time to lose the weight once you're done. That's what I keep telling myself. Maybe not loose but maintain?
xx Julie
Hey, could you give me your msn address? :)
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