I wouldn't care

I am living in a madness.

At university today there was a huge mess, I really didn't care about the problem that existed. They are all being unreasonable and I won't be part of it just because the majority wants to mess everything up.

We have a presentation next Monday (less than a week) and we haven't even started. Oh, how mad I am..I really would prefer to do it myself than be THIS nervous until Monday.

In addition to that, I'm leaving for my hometown next Thursday and I don't know where my fish is going to go. I mean I can't take him with me, I'm flying there: so no liquids..

Problems, problems, problems..

And what am I doing? Eating pasta. Lol.

I have to get myself together, I really do. I have only two weeks until Christmas. I need super powers to fix everything.

The only thing is that it's starting to get cold! It was about time I think. Of course the lowest we could reach was 15 Celsius degrees but we'll take it.

Oh and last night movie: The Prestige. Love love loved it!

Tonight's movie? Inception.

off for a run at the harbour, I hope you are all doing great!

pure perfection

Sorry I disappeared during the weekend.. I was studying for my theoretical driving exams, feeling angry and depressed for no reason. As a result I didn't study much. Luckily I passed them! You can only make one wrong answer but mine were all correct! I was really lucky because as it turned out I didn't have the second book I needed to study for the exams. My teacher's father was in the hospital and he forgot to tell me about it. Of course I understand, his father is very sick, I hope he does okay..

Anyway.

I'll make a proper post tomorrow, I promise. Oh I saw some movies during the weekend. I watched "When In Rome" and it was kinda boring but I laughed too, "Hard Candy" which I really liked cause I like thrillers (I hate horror films though) and "Sin City" which I -just- liked. Have you seen any of these??

Finally day IS over..

So this is my 200nth post!

I have decided to do another WhatsInMyBag post.. If you want my previous one click here, not much have changed though. I like this posts/videos cause you can see what's important and what silly stuff we carry in our bags. I hope you find it interesting, too :)

OH, before this just let me inform you about my blood tests. They are better than the ones in October and my parents are finally happy about them. Weird thing though, I wasn't really pleased to be healthy.. and that really worries me. But oh, well. Now I can focus on my weight loss without them getting into the way.

Today was a horrible day. My previous post kinda describes it. So I decided to cheer up myself the evil way. I'm embarrassed to tell you that I fed and fed and fed myself until I was way than full. That really cheered me up (highest amount of sugar in your body does wonders sometimes) and made it to yoga class. I walked to and from the gym and also had 15mins on the elliptical. It doesn't make up for the mess I made earlier but no panic attack tonight, so I'm good. Not great.

I am trying to think it was only ONE day and that tomorrow I can continue my Rome Diet..

On to the purpose of the post.

Here's a picture of my bag turned inside out. Such a mess!

So you can see my home keys, my key chain is from Camden Town in London from the sweetest chinese girl who made these little dolls, my glasses I only wear at university and when I'm driving (I choose to be blind most of the times, cause I don't like them much). A pen, my lipstick, a lighter although I don't smoke but we use them in Biochemistry labs. My cellphone and mp3 (which is so lame, don't EVER buy it), my pink pills, a hand cream and my Chanel spray perfume, my silver purse (money, ID, starbucks-gym-tickets card, etc), my notebook and this lovely purse I keep tissues, tampons and other sanitary things.

So there you go! What's in your bag? if you make that kind of post -and you should totally do- please leave the link in your comment so we can all see it :)

Number 27.

Goodmorning

Sorry I didn't post last night but I was having a panic attack and just couldn't handle anything. I have bitten my nails, oh they look so horrible. Just a little history, I haven't bitten my nails like that since I was 16. That is four years, thank you very much.

That is the reason why I have always nail polish on. But yesterday nothing stopped me. And I really wonder why...

Anyway, I had my blood tests this morning. It was torture to wake up at 8 but I made it and this evening the results will be out. Let's see..

I hope you are all lot better than me.

I'm really trying to cheer myself up. Oh, and scale is still 57.5 so no news with that.

love the outfit*

How fake are they?

In my last post I was asked a really nice question from *Broken*. She said:

"I have a question, why is your blog named like that? It intrigues me."

well you gotta give a name to your blog right? So I kept thinking about a year ago ad finally came up with that title. I have sleeping problems as long as I can remember..so all these sleepless hours in bed instead of counting sheep (how many sheep can you count all these years?) I started making up memories. Stories of what should have happened that day, etc.. Since I was about 15 my stories began to start with that same sentence:

"well, I'm skinny and happy.."

So there you go: Fake.Fading.Memories.

Today I couldn't wake up. My muscles were aching but my scale showed 57.5 so I was beyond happy. My driving lesson went good and I went back to my house to cook. I am one terrible terrible cook! Anyway I couldn't eat the meat so now I'm so hungry.. I decided to post than eat and force myself to the yoga class. My social life has once again drown. I don't want to go outside and already turned down one invitation for coffee. Boo me. I'll go to the gym instead. But weirdly enough that doesn't make me feel better today..

ugh I better end this post now or it wont be pleasant.

All of you take care*

hungry as you may be, look at THIS !