All the things I am. Sure, I don't like many of them, I hate others, but it's me. I started wearing my leggings again. It's a good sign. I stopped eating again. I like it. I only eat to take my pills and to drink. And I drink (to get drunk).
Anyway, probably these all don't make any sense. I just wanted to put them all out there. Sharing. Oh, I also bought a homeless boy a pizza. Everyone at the bus stop was looking at me, but I couldn't care less. I thought I wasn't eating lunch anyway, so why not buy this kid some food?
Well that's me, a (bitch) with some good outbursts. Not eating makes me a bitch, and I feel comfortable behind this mask. So, no apologies, sorry (no apologies, I said!).
I also keep taking pics to post them here and every time I hesitate. Fuck that. There you go, on the progress of the making of my belly. The part of my body I feel worse for. But I am working on it.
please excuse my Hello Kitty
(dressed as a penguin) pyjamas :)
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I always feel like I am being selfish for having an eating disorder because there are so many people who would give anything to be my weight, because being fat would mean they weren't starving. But we aren't bad people. And you did something awesome, and you should be proud of yourself. That pizza might means days of remorse to you, but for him it might be days of meals he wouldn't have had otherwise, or maybe just a moment to feel like a normal person, which is worth a lot. You should be proud. Also, those pjs are adorable!
ReplyDeleteYou look amazing, lovely!! Don't ever hesitate to show off something that is in progress in your mind :3 be proud that you're working for something!
ReplyDeleteYou look amazing!I can totally see your hipbones!And it's so kind of you to do that for someone else.I'm sure he appreciated it very much.
ReplyDeleteSexiest. Pyjamas. Ever.
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I am so jealous of your pj's! They're awesome.
ReplyDeleteThe main thing I hate about having an eating disorder is the fact that I feel like a selfish and ungrateful bitch. There are people in this world who literally kill to feed themselves and their family and here I am refusing a full meal. But then, we can't help it. We really can't.
You stomach is divine. I am jealous of that too hahaha. You should be proud of your progress, you should be proud of what you look like now.
Love Anafly
xxx
Great progress!!! You are such a nice person, I'm sure that homeless boy really appreciated your gesture. That's so golden.
ReplyDeletexx :)
You're a really good person for giving the pizza to him. It's nice that for a few days he can eat like a normal person. After all, he didn't choose to be hungry. We did.
ReplyDeleteYour pajamas are adorable. Love Hello Kitty <3
You look GREAT!!!!!
i think it looks great so far!! keep up the work! :D
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