Vodka & Cranberry

Yesterday I celebrated my 21st birthday. At a club. I'm turning 21 on Tuesday and I am very happy about it! 21 is my lucky number and I am thrilled that on the 21st I'm turning 21! Silly, I know..

I often count years between my birthdays and not every New Year's Eve. That means I think about what I achieved and set my goals for the upcoming year.. Thinking back I am not pleased. I spent this year self hating, hating others and a bit crying..

On the plus side (I MUST think of the plus side always, and I have to remember that) I travelled to New York, I learned my health limits and reached a low and a high to my university life. I changed two different groups of friends and now I think I am with the people I actually could match with.

Forgetting this year, I look ahead.

On Thursday I'm flying to London for holidays, my collarbones and hip bones are showing more than ever, and even though I did not reach my goal weight, I am pleased that my top rib is showing. I have all summer to eliminate the damage this year has done to my grades and classes and I am ready to set goals and be the good student I used to.

I am thinking of taking a kick boxing class next year, find a boyfriend and work on expressing my feelings to the ones I love.

I still don't have internet connection, I will spend the night at E's so I have some time until she gets nosy and wants to see what I'm writing :)

My exams end on Tuesday (yes, on my birthday) and me and my friends will have some cake at the park with candles and stuff. Oh, that (cake eating) reminds me that last Friday I went to the beach! Yes, I got a bit of a tan and turned half brown half red lol. Next bikini day will be on Wednesday and I look forward to wear my new ruffle bandeau bikini :):)