Just tuna and coffee..it almost makes me sick.

My head hurts so badly.. Of course there's nothing I can do about it, as I refuse to take any medication unless it's sth really bad..that's why I haven't taken my pills for almost a week, I know it's stupid though. But since I started taking these pills -for more than 8 years or sth- I have never taken them properly. Even when I had to take like 3 or 4 a day. I'm a really stupid girL at times...

I take my vitamins though.. in order to spend hours at the gym burning cals I must take some vitamins. And believe me nothing's gonna stop me from working out. Like tonight I have yoga class but tmrrw morning it's my Chemistry(I) exam.. I'm going to yoga class no matter what. I really don't care about my exams this semester, I know I should...

So today my scale showed 57 again. It really starts to annoy me this thing, I am so looking forward to 55.sth but I guess I have loooong time to go.

In a week I'm going home. Don't know why the hell I decided to do that, really. Anyway hope it's gonna be alright. Few hours ago I was watching an episode of "The City".. Last year when there was nothing to do I watched "The Hills" so I thought today I should see what City was all about. The only think I got is that my clothes are stupid, my legs are fat and I really want a model-shaped boyfriend. HA!! Guess I'm not going to watch another episode. Like really..

I really like LC -if you watched the Hills you know her, maybe for some it's a bit pathetic but what can you do- and her style. I think she was my first thinspo and a big style icon cause my style relates a lot to hers. Of course now with all that lace I'm a bit destracted but oh, well. I also found this picture of Olivia on the web and I was like wow. I really like her legs and her style but it's quite formal for me..

A common secret?

Today was my two first exams for this period and I sucked in a way in both of them. But because I didn't have enough time to study before xmas, I wasn't feeling very guilty.. So today that I weighted myself I was 57.3 and ate half yoghurt to prevent my stomach from making noises during the tests. Then me and my friends went to the center so I was forced to eat in front of them half salad which was about 115cals and a small candy that one of them brought for me from her hometown. Well that sucked. Not only was I forced to eat it all, but had to tell her it was delicious the same time I was starting to panic about breaking the diet I had just started. Oh well I'll keep going and just forget what I did.

At the moment I'm "window shopping" online at some US stores and I am totally in the mood for new clothes and new thinspo!! My sister is going to NY so I'm making a small (let's say not really.. lol) list of what I want her to send me.

I'm also looking for cheap tickets for May to go to London.. Black Eyed Peas are having a concert at the O2 arena and I so badly want to go!! By May I know I will have reached at least my first goal so it will be so amazing! I love getting dressed to go out in London. Everywhere you look there is a new trend and you can be both inspired and thinspired. I always end up loving the photos I took and looooooving the new clothes I bought! Of course I should mention I always go on a strict diet just before I visit London..

Tonight I'm going to the gym; every Monday I do step dance and it really knock my socks out! I always end up melting and with my hair almost wet but it sure does worth it..

So my thinspo buddy has suddenly disappeared haha.. She is my friend and decided she wants to follow me and be buddies and she's the only one who knows what I am doing. Let's call her Nicole. Everybody else thinks that this will effect my health, as it's not already messed up, and I don't need such insane things. But you know, it really sucks when nobody supports you and nobody understands.

But I think if you reached in that point of my blog without saying wtf is she talking about, then YOU understand me and support what I do.

Well thank you for that.

:)