Friday was hell. I mean the museum event was so fun, and so tiring but after that I went for a couple of drinks. Have you ever walked into a bar to find every 'ex' you recently had within 5 meters from each other? I mean not boyfriends per say, just every guy you've fooled around/made out in 2012. Don't panic, they were only three. And being on an island, they all know each other, but I choose to believe no one knows everything. Anyway, it got pretty ugly. O was the worst part. He demanded I explained things right there right now, and he told me that we were never friends (for 3 years we've been hanging out, anyway I get his point, it's just that he was a little rude). The other two were pretty much drinking, minding their business and giving me weird (the one) and angry (the other one) looks. Hell I say.
Saturday G came over at my place. We met this year and have really clicked in the matter of good company. We have spent 2-3 nights together just drinking and talking and this night was one of them. I like being around him, he likes it too. I don't think he wants something more from me, no. Too bad, cause he's probably the first guy I've felt I could try an actual relationship with since 2010. Way long back, I know, and it's true. I think I am already friendzoned though, you know. It's not only that he couldn't like me as his girlfriend, it's just that I had a fling with one of his friends too. He also has a pretty much good picture in his mind about how I fuck up relationships and how awkward I make situations. So, why would he bother?
*just found out I got 7.5/10 on the first exam I wrote this summer. my only hope to pass something up until now, and I'm not even grateful for it, I could do better*
Sunday was a fairly tiring day, having slept about 5 hours and waking up after 2 bottles of wine (me and G make a nice alcoholic couple). I tried to eat something because my appetite is pretty much gone these days and I fear that when it comes back I will double take each kilo I seem to have lost.
That pretty much gives you my whole weekend in paragraphs.
xx
Bloody hell. What an awkward situation! Life can be such a horrendous bitch sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI hope things go well with G. It could be good to focus on the friends thing and see how things develop. Even if you don't end up romantically attached, you've still found a really good mate, right?
Take care <3
ew. Exams. can they die in a hole of filth and piss
ReplyDeletei don't know if everything happens for a reason or karma works but i just kinda float in the universe, dislodged from everything.
HELL. what the Hell ffffff i would've chopped their balls off c:
heeeeelll. wow. i...don't like people so i have nothing to say xo
and coffee! i have a cup beside me, full and hot right now! Don't know about the cigs though xo
take care of yourself, babe. try to appreciate the little things. your 7.5 was still awesome. ;) and i have no idea about G or anything but you're a doll and a dream ^_^
-Sam Lupin
oooh man, i live in a small town and all of my ex boyfriends from highschool are now friends with each other and still talk about me constantly when im in the same bar or lounge as them. however, the best part is that they look terrible because they got heavy into drugs a year after highschool graduation, and i look better and more fit than ever! lol
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Exams suck, they just drain all the energy out of you which is horrible.
ReplyDeleteAll of my "ex boyfriends" are for some reason my brothers best friends so they know, they discuss and they make it a sport to break my heart I guess. They are pretty damn good at it anyways.
Caffeine and cigarettes. Works like magic every day.
Take care, 'positive outcomes only'.
Love, x