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I got to my scale this morning: 55.9
at least it's 55 so I am happy enough!! today I had 2%fat yogurt with corn flakes, a tall iced white choco latte and a salad.. I'm assuming 600 all? I have my tae-bo class this afternoon, and then I'm going for drinks with E and two guys I don't know yet (long story, the one was at my school back home -I dont even remember him though- and now we go to the same uni so he thought it's time we met).
I am so in this mood right now:
"Talking bout you all is such a bore
..I'd rather talk about moi" -M.I.A.
I don't know why I'm such in a great mood, but I love it!
I started watching How I Met Your Mother (yes, during my exams, I know I suck) and I got to the 4th or 5th episode, the one with the Slutty Pumpkin, and I got so inspired by Robin! She had the exact same boyfriend situation..
anyway this series is awesome indeed :)
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
Sunday, 6 June 2010
Look at us, but do not touch..
Yesterday was FUN :D
so me and my friend E went to a concert which was both rock and hip hop (lol) and we had a great time.. I liked the rock part, she was thrilled about the hip hop so everybody was happy!
I got to meet the drummer of the band (yeiii for single girls!) and some of his friends and we added each other on facebook this morning.. not that big a deal but I needed some new guy(s) on my Saturday night :)
I only had one glass of beer, so Silly Girl that was for you :D
I was feeling very nice last night, and I'm still feeling great, I even wore my jean skirt today when I went for lunch with E.(no need to mention I was wearing a long jacket too) although summer is officially here!
I had a salad and a tall iced non-fat mocha coffee and for breakfast corn flakes it was. So I have to finish studying for my PlantBiology exam for tmrrw, so black coffee for the rest of the day. I took my pill, too!
Oh, I almost forgot!!
We had an earthquake a few hours ago. Luckily I wasn't home but I felt it, I don't mind, I'm not scared of earthquakes as long as the building doesn't fall down :P
so me and my friend E went to a concert which was both rock and hip hop (lol) and we had a great time.. I liked the rock part, she was thrilled about the hip hop so everybody was happy!
I got to meet the drummer of the band (yeiii for single girls!) and some of his friends and we added each other on facebook this morning.. not that big a deal but I needed some new guy(s) on my Saturday night :)
I only had one glass of beer, so Silly Girl that was for you :D
I was feeling very nice last night, and I'm still feeling great, I even wore my jean skirt today when I went for lunch with E.(no need to mention I was wearing a long jacket too) although summer is officially here!
I had a salad and a tall iced non-fat mocha coffee and for breakfast corn flakes it was. So I have to finish studying for my PlantBiology exam for tmrrw, so black coffee for the rest of the day. I took my pill, too!
Oh, I almost forgot!!
We had an earthquake a few hours ago. Luckily I wasn't home but I felt it, I don't mind, I'm not scared of earthquakes as long as the building doesn't fall down :P
Saturday, 5 June 2010
Blah blah blaaaah..
I'm lost somewhere between PlantBiology and facebook all day today. Okay, I have a confession to make:
I kinda.. a little bit.. I just want him in my life again.
There it is, I said it!
We talked the day before yesterday and I told him I miss him, he sounded surprised and told me he misses me too.. So I said well I have to go to the gym, so if you want to talk to me text me okay? He said okay and kissed me through the phone.
I was happy enough..
I waited over my phone one whole day and I'm sorry for me already. So today we were "playing" around facebook and msn, he actually refused to talk to me and followed me wherever I was online. But I wasn't that desperate to text him first again. So I waited, studying about Plants and trying to kill a small insect in my kitchen (didn't manage to, though..I wonder where it is atm..) and then BAM! he texted me on fb. We talked more random than ever and he sounded awkward enough so I didn't tell him to come over for coffee. End of story.
I know..I know..
I have to just forget about him. And you know what? If that was the kind of "talk" he understood I wanted us to have, then maybe sth is really wrong with our Chemistry.. such a pity, but I can accept that.
Can I??
Anyways.. I forgot to tell you about my intake. See? Something's wrong with me!
So I had Kellogs Special K corn flakes with non-fat milk for breakfast, an apple, about 3 cups of black coffee and a 2%-fat greek yogurt. And that's all, too many I know but I stopped eating at around 4pm so now I'm having water and I assume a beer too, cause Saturday night is coming.
:D
I kinda.. a little bit.. I just want him in my life again.
There it is, I said it!
We talked the day before yesterday and I told him I miss him, he sounded surprised and told me he misses me too.. So I said well I have to go to the gym, so if you want to talk to me text me okay? He said okay and kissed me through the phone.
I was happy enough..
I waited over my phone one whole day and I'm sorry for me already. So today we were "playing" around facebook and msn, he actually refused to talk to me and followed me wherever I was online. But I wasn't that desperate to text him first again. So I waited, studying about Plants and trying to kill a small insect in my kitchen (didn't manage to, though..I wonder where it is atm..) and then BAM! he texted me on fb. We talked more random than ever and he sounded awkward enough so I didn't tell him to come over for coffee. End of story.
I know..I know..
I have to just forget about him. And you know what? If that was the kind of "talk" he understood I wanted us to have, then maybe sth is really wrong with our Chemistry.. such a pity, but I can accept that.
Can I??
Anyways.. I forgot to tell you about my intake. See? Something's wrong with me!
So I had Kellogs Special K corn flakes with non-fat milk for breakfast, an apple, about 3 cups of black coffee and a 2%-fat greek yogurt. And that's all, too many I know but I stopped eating at around 4pm so now I'm having water and I assume a beer too, cause Saturday night is coming.
:D
Friday, 4 June 2010
Goodmorning to all :)
Yesterday was a full day, (nephron anatomy it was!! but it was okay..I guess I passed it with a good grade) and then my friend's (E's) mom cooked for the two of us, so I spent my noon eating chicken with pasta covered in fat and my afternoon at the gym running running running... I got so tired (pills? thanks, I think I'll pass..) that I slept with wet hair after my bath.
-you really don't want to see how my hair looks this morning :p
*Anyway I will get to the point: Sun-Lit~ gave me a Beautiful Blogger Award !!
oh, I want to thank you so much cause these days I feel anything but Beautiful and of course I will follow your blog, I read some posts and I love the way you write your feelings down sweety :)
So I decided to tell you some things you probably don't know about me..
1. I was biting my nails until I was 16. I mean hard, till blood comes out, my parents were devastated but there was nothing they could do that they didn't try. But when I met him (I have talked about the one that was the one for me in a so special way..and I don't mean my first, but he is still everything for me) and had to go to a party with him holding my hand I immediatly stopped biting them and painted my nails dark purple.
My nails are dark purple ever since then. My new friends have never seen my nails paint-free.
2. I strongly and utterly believe that it is stupid to have feelings. And I know that's stupid. I tend to be hard on myself but I'm often hard to others too, and that makes me sentimental. It's a cycle I can't get out of.
3. I straighten my hair every day. I mean literally. I can't leave the house for two days and not take my straightener with me. I can forget my cell phone, but not my GHD straightener. My hair is not curly, but it's so many and opposite to the fact that I want everything as slim as it gets.
4. I hate orange. I mean I actually hate that colour. I don't like it for my stuff and I don't accept it on others. I like orange juice though..
My favourite colours are green, hot pink and grey.
5. I couldn't sleep well since last year. I ended up having four (4) covers and a pillow mist (which I still use) and I still couldn't sleep.
The truth is that I am scared to sleep. Now that I live alone I wait until I am exhausted and then I go to sleep. I always look under my bed and always check twice if the door is locked. And yes, my childhood was great, no traumatic things.
The sleepless hours spent on my bed is the time for fake memories..
I am crazy, thank you.
6. As I have already told you, my mom is fat. She was addicted to chocolate but now she is getting better, loosing weight. This year I realised how much I love her. She, too. It's cruel that my mom thought I didn't love her until now. I feel so bad about it, I had to move out to get it.
Anyway, as a child my parents forced me and my sister to go to the scale every morning and they were checking our weight, telling us fat is bad, and we were both normal weight kids. The reason -I realised long after- was they didn't want us to be fat and feel sorry for ourselves growing up, cause my mom had the worst time back then.
I feel so bad, and I have never laughed at a fat person, never! and I cannot accept such behaviour.
Of course all these left me an ED, but oh, well.
7. Oh, I have a silly one. I am scared to buy an ipod. It's true. Along with number3 on this list, my mp3 device is my life. Music is my life. And still, even though I have the money to buy one, I feel so weird to buy an ipod. I'm sure my next mp3 will be some other random label.. I need some help here! :p
8. I don't have a tv here. So I spend my days watching Friends online. I mean again and again and again random episodes and laugh every single time! There are so many series online, but I just watch Friends and Big Bang Theory.
Well this is it. Now you know more things about me. I hope it didn't get boring!
love you, xoxo
-you really don't want to see how my hair looks this morning :p
*Anyway I will get to the point: Sun-Lit~ gave me a Beautiful Blogger Award !!
oh, I want to thank you so much cause these days I feel anything but Beautiful and of course I will follow your blog, I read some posts and I love the way you write your feelings down sweety :)
So I decided to tell you some things you probably don't know about me..
1. I was biting my nails until I was 16. I mean hard, till blood comes out, my parents were devastated but there was nothing they could do that they didn't try. But when I met him (I have talked about the one that was the one for me in a so special way..and I don't mean my first, but he is still everything for me) and had to go to a party with him holding my hand I immediatly stopped biting them and painted my nails dark purple.
My nails are dark purple ever since then. My new friends have never seen my nails paint-free.
2. I strongly and utterly believe that it is stupid to have feelings. And I know that's stupid. I tend to be hard on myself but I'm often hard to others too, and that makes me sentimental. It's a cycle I can't get out of.
3. I straighten my hair every day. I mean literally. I can't leave the house for two days and not take my straightener with me. I can forget my cell phone, but not my GHD straightener. My hair is not curly, but it's so many and opposite to the fact that I want everything as slim as it gets.
4. I hate orange. I mean I actually hate that colour. I don't like it for my stuff and I don't accept it on others. I like orange juice though..
My favourite colours are green, hot pink and grey.
5. I couldn't sleep well since last year. I ended up having four (4) covers and a pillow mist (which I still use) and I still couldn't sleep.
The truth is that I am scared to sleep. Now that I live alone I wait until I am exhausted and then I go to sleep. I always look under my bed and always check twice if the door is locked. And yes, my childhood was great, no traumatic things.
The sleepless hours spent on my bed is the time for fake memories..
I am crazy, thank you.
6. As I have already told you, my mom is fat. She was addicted to chocolate but now she is getting better, loosing weight. This year I realised how much I love her. She, too. It's cruel that my mom thought I didn't love her until now. I feel so bad about it, I had to move out to get it.
Anyway, as a child my parents forced me and my sister to go to the scale every morning and they were checking our weight, telling us fat is bad, and we were both normal weight kids. The reason -I realised long after- was they didn't want us to be fat and feel sorry for ourselves growing up, cause my mom had the worst time back then.
I feel so bad, and I have never laughed at a fat person, never! and I cannot accept such behaviour.
Of course all these left me an ED, but oh, well.
7. Oh, I have a silly one. I am scared to buy an ipod. It's true. Along with number3 on this list, my mp3 device is my life. Music is my life. And still, even though I have the money to buy one, I feel so weird to buy an ipod. I'm sure my next mp3 will be some other random label.. I need some help here! :p
8. I don't have a tv here. So I spend my days watching Friends online. I mean again and again and again random episodes and laugh every single time! There are so many series online, but I just watch Friends and Big Bang Theory.
Well this is it. Now you know more things about me. I hope it didn't get boring!
love you, xoxo
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
*The chemicals between us..
I have an empty room in my house. I like to call it my boudoir, although it's not that fancy, it's more of a closet.. next year I'm bringing my bed to this room, to make it a wonderful bedroom.
Until then, here is where I spend most of my time when my emotions are intense. I like sitting on the floor. I always have, it makes me calm.. it helps me to stay focused and think. I love to study, laugh, cry, dance on the floor. These days it's not one of these. I just sit on my yoga mat and listen to mucis. All kinds of music, as my mood changes every thirty seconds, no lie. Everything repulses me..
Tmrrw I have my second exam: English for Biology II. Okay, I know it is an easy test, I mean it's English, but try to memorise the nephron anatomy.. Of course it is the easiest out of the 6, so I don't panic.
As for other news, today I had a home made lemonade, a chicken salad and some sugar free cookies. Of course having drunk black coffee all day today, all these are no longer in my stomach, luckily.. E does not leave me alone this week, cause she says I'm too calm and that's quite disturbing for me. Ha, I wonder what she is afraid of, I'm not stupid enough to get depression because of men.
Well, duh!
Until then, here is where I spend most of my time when my emotions are intense. I like sitting on the floor. I always have, it makes me calm.. it helps me to stay focused and think. I love to study, laugh, cry, dance on the floor. These days it's not one of these. I just sit on my yoga mat and listen to mucis. All kinds of music, as my mood changes every thirty seconds, no lie. Everything repulses me..
Tmrrw I have my second exam: English for Biology II. Okay, I know it is an easy test, I mean it's English, but try to memorise the nephron anatomy.. Of course it is the easiest out of the 6, so I don't panic.
As for other news, today I had a home made lemonade, a chicken salad and some sugar free cookies. Of course having drunk black coffee all day today, all these are no longer in my stomach, luckily.. E does not leave me alone this week, cause she says I'm too calm and that's quite disturbing for me. Ha, I wonder what she is afraid of, I'm not stupid enough to get depression because of men.
Well, duh!
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