Fuck it. I never was a happy person, but I'm just apathetic to my surroundings. Again. I do things I want to, yet I don't find pleasure in doing them. It's like I have to force myself to be happy. The good things that are going on, I just take them for granted so I don't let myself get happy. Then one bad thing happens and I start the self blaming and the self hating.
I have a very bad energy around me lately.
p.s. Can some people just say "thank you" and shut the fuck up?
Thank you?
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I get the "thank you". I know what you mean!
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I know how you feel. We can all get stuck in that horrid cycle. I find that if I take a 'fake-it-till-I-make-it' attitude I eventually end up happy again. Not sure if it will work for you but it might be worth sticking it out to find out? The other thing that works for me is being happy about small things- having pretty plants/a manicure/wearing a nice dress/a lovely cup of tea.. then it kind of balances out the bad stuff, especially when you have a day full of the little happy things!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your comment, I really value your feedback. I'm curious though- what kind of things would encourage you to cook/eat healthy? If I put how low calorie things are would it help? I totally get you on the being more personal thing, I've been censoring myself on my food blog, I think its what made my old blog so much more fun... perhaps I should let a little of my crazy into this one?... sorry for the ramble! Thanks again for the comment- I've missed you xxx
I can relate all too well.
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