There are times, many times, that I miss my old self. The one who managed to stay focused, to have discipline, to wake up on an empty stomach and feel bliss. Sure I was ill and too much inside my head; at the same time feeling powerful and in control is one of the best feelings. Maybe some of you understand this.
These times I try to find ways to inspire myself, without trigger any kind of 'fall back'. I make some ice tea (vanilla rooibos, for those who wonder) and scroll through
my Tumblr.
Stylish girls, clean lines and neutral colours.
My mind relaxes and I feel like some part of this self is still inside me.
It does feel good to be in control of my body and my emotions but it doesn't happen often.
ReplyDeleteOh, to be in control! Unfortunately my body, the disordered part of my brain and the logical part of my brain don't get on.
ReplyDeleteI think you should try meditating. It always helps me stay calm and focused.
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