Mayday. (?)

I have been really clumsy over the weekend. With people coming over, wanting to use my laptop, with me being the only one who has an iPhone, many people use the Safari. And I can't go crazy about it cause that would make me a bitch (the bitch who doesn't want to give the iPhone).

So I just do a little prayer every time someone goes on the internet. Pleeease don't type f-a-k-e, etc cause then my blog will show up.

What if someone saw it and then Googles it at home?

Oh, the horror.

I see two solutions: I either stop obsessing about it and do another prayer that no one saw it OR I change the URL and name of the blog and risk loosing well, you guys.

What Do I Do??

p.s. I don't pray much.

A little economics.

If you have an eye for pretty things you will probably need a budget to cover for them. It's common moment on a girl's life when she has to choose between something pretty and dinner. For me it's even more complicated. I grew up in a family where saving was a big deal. Don't get me wrong, I still had everything I could possibly want but I was raised to save. So what do you do when you have the money for those pretty things, but guilt is stronger than hunger?

I started writing down my everyday expenses. Just at the bottom of my calendar, adding every number up and getting the score. It seems I am spending about 15 euro every day.

With my tattoo coming up (I checked, it will be about 100-120 pounds) at London I have to save money for my trip. Cause London means shopping, drinking (I miss Pimm's), frozen yoghurt, art shopping and well, Busaba. But I have three full months until then and a closet to feed. Oh, and my pilates class.

Ugh, and I have to do one big "donation" to the pharmacy on Monday. Pills, face cream, face lotion, face soap- make up remover. I'm thinking it will sum up to 70-80 euro. God.

The solution? Feed on soup, spinach pie, coffee, orange juice and fruit for a month. This way I could buy some T-shirts, a blazer, a new cologne and a rug for my desk (my feet are always so cold while studying) GUILT-FREE.

Random morning thoughts

I swear one day I will make it. I would love if I could have a good breakfast at the morning and convince myself that this can hold me for the rest of the day. A cappuccino, some grapes and a sandwich is the ideal breakfast for me. And then you can have a soup for dinner and an orange juice for snack. If only I could do this without my head hurting and my mind thinking of food all the time.

Because now, every time I have breakfast, I just keep thinking of the next meal. What will it be, what I must avoid, who I should stay away from because they eat every time they go out, stuff like that. But if I don't have breakfast, then magically I don't want to eat, I just stay in this "ill" situation all day. I love that feeling. But for a functioning anaemic student who doesn't sit much that is suicide. And I don't want to die, not really.

Oh, my!

I got my blood tests back today. Well, I've been worse. And I feel great. So no alarm yeeiii!! My mum thinks differently though and wants to change my medicine. That's fine, as long as my eating doesn't change, I will follow new orders. Currently I take two types of multi vitamin pills and my medicine with orange juice every day so I don't have to worry about eating. Oh, if only they knew I haven't eaten meat/fish for a month! (oh, for those wondering, I have serious anaemia- google it).

I'm just cooperating so I don't have to go to the hospital okay?

So everything's good!

My order from Asos hasn't arrived yet and I'm so nervously excited. I hope they fit and look as fabulous as on the site. In other news, lately I enjoy Pilates more than usual! I have made great progress and I like the toning in my stomach (maybe you'll have a pic in a couple of weeks). And tonight there was the most handsome guy I've seen since summer! He was friends with my male instructor and I just couldn't stop looking at him. I played cool though, haha.. Sorry for the rambling and the kindergarten shit, I have to grow up, I know! :)

:)

After a long night of laughs, skirts, cute boys and looooots of wine, I have Evolution class.. I couldn't be more tired, I think, but it was worth it. I had to go with all casual look (which probably makes me look fatter than I already am but I love) and with these Victoria's Secret sweats. Don't you just love the colour??

A new week ahead of us, lets make it count. I know I would!

(read: serious restriction. SERIOUS restriction) the flu gives me nightmares somehow, but now I'm up and feeling better :)

*photo has been removed by well, me