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I was gone. Did you notice? I don't remember when was the last time I posted, but I wouldn't bother to check on that either. Long time has passed; exams have passed, although they were an epic fail. My birthday were okay, I guess. They were, to put it straightforward, a happy birthday. No more, no less. Certain people were missing from it, but it's okay. Everything's okay, I've grown up.

Did I tell you, I met someone. One who could possibly take my mind off this fucked up situtation I had put myself into. We met at Starbucks, where we were both studying for exams. He's sweet. But. There's always a but, it seems. He figured out very soon that we are boyfriend/girlfriend. So soon that I couldn't even breathe when I realised it. I did the normal thing though: talked to him. We said we'll keep in touch and discuss it in August, when we will meet again. It looks normal, and it scares the fuck out of me. I decided to role-play 'normal' this semester, just to see what happens.

I also should have you know I lack enthousiasm lately.
Other than that, I am well.
And possibly back.

I'm thinking of a Happy Birthday

Right this moment.

When everything in your life belongs to yourself, no one else. When you have so many people around you to care about and care for you. When you are just a student in this whole fucking world. When the sun is going down, and you listen to this song. When the guy outside your window is another student; you see each other every day yet you'll never meet. When you have so much to think about, dramas and happy moments. When your exams are the most stressful thing; and the reason to meet new people- who knew. When the wind blows through your hair.

When you smile every day.

Then, you play it on repeat.
You care of nothing.
You are happy.
You're turning 23 tomorrow.
:)

The wind blows

Another exam period shot to hell. That seems to be some kind of skill, I have, to run everything of the most importance during exam period. Like taking a pregnancy test. This was the most scary thing I've done for a really long time. It was negative, but if my period doesn't come I'm not going to calm down. Paranoia is a common symptom to a biology student during the finals, you see.

I'm also a little feverish since Saturday. Well, you know, the minute I convinced myself to diet, my immune system thought it wasn't such a good idea. I'm used to that by now though; my ED trying to keep me starved while my aneamia is begging me for energy for my body to function. I do both weekly and manage to lose well, NOTHING but my temper.

In a more shiny note, I saw The Great Gatsby. Oh, how magical it was! I enjoyed everything: the music, the colours, the time that was filmed, Leonardo. The story (which I didn't know) is a great love story, nothing more, but to be honest I was more than fine with that. I may read the book over summer as well, just to compare.

I went for a drink after the movie, so I'm starting studying a little late..but oh well.

xx

Well, hello

May is almost over and I am, don't worry, still here.

My trip was amazing, everything I could ask for. Peru is a wonderful country, with lots of colour and every contrast you can ever imagine. I had a great time and coming back I realised how much I needed this trip. I also got tanned -a bit too much if I may add- and got to feed some lamas too!!

Getting back to reality, my summer exams start this Friday. Shit is what I though too. Exam's drama has already began and I'm trying to stay focused and study. G and O are so very upset with all the situation, and no one knows what will happen (I'm friends with benefits with O while G is on my mind -for the new followers. complicated much?).

Anyway, I got some amazing mint sandals, to match with my nail polish and I'm staying calm. I'm also on a 30 day-at-home diet/fitness programme. I can't go to the gym anymore due to my health issues so I'm doing this instead. I am on Day 2. Lol.

this is me, meditating at the Gate Of The Sun, 

overlooking Machu Picchu

oversized Topshop knit, Zara jeans, bracelet from Peru

River's fairytales *

I don't know why I disappeared like that. It was hectic, madness, such a full daily scheduled. And now we've come to this; one week before Easter holidays. One week before May, too. Like, what?

I got my blood test results today. Shit. I am pretty much the same as I was two years ago. I told myself i wouldn't let it happen again. Well.. My mom wanted to come to the island, but I assured her that I'm going to be good for this week. Then I'm flying home, so she can pamper me all she wants. For three days.
Because after that I'm leaving! London, then Peru :D
I can't let this ruin my holidays, ruin my sister's holidays. So many things to see, so much money spent, I have to be strong and happy for such a trip. And I will.

Doctors say I shouldn't be active right now; they mumble the word 'hospitalised'. It's not logical, but I'm always stronger that I should be according to the tests. So I am taking it down a bit, but operating fully at the same time. I dragged myself to the nail bar today. I had my eyebrows waxed and a grey/blue manicure. It was nice to talk to strangers, my friends and family today treated me like a puppy.

if only I could find the perfect maxi dress..

xxx