Just Like Rapunzel..

This would be a blah post. THIS IS A WARNING! Sundays make me sick. My Fish today ate some of what I gave him and then just purged it. I couldn't believe it. At last he ate it. Pheww..
I started running yesterday by the sea and I got all exhausted within the first 10 minutes. That's bad. Next week I'm starting gym again (i know it took me so fucking long) and I'm uber excited. Having last year's schedule, I believe I can attend a yoga class twice, a tae-bo class once and the last class will either be power aerobics or another tae bo (cause I just love it, it combines fight moves with steps and aerobic). So adding them up it will be 4 gym classes and 3-4 runs /week. Can't wait.

I'm addicted to fitness. You propably already know that I was actually to become an aerobics class instructor but "I have much more potential" -family&friends crap- plus I'm anemic to the bone so I chose biology over aerobics and decided I would just use aerobics to work out and make other instructors cry cause I know more. ha!
Oh call me bitch but I get quite confident about it. I've been practising my whole life, I was a pro at swimming and always imagined myself as an athlete. Well some years later here I am on this island pretending to study and hating all these geniouses who don't have lives outside of the university books. Because yes, I care about painting my nails and I care about boys. I love to hang around listening to music, and yes I'm counting calories because I AM NOT thin enough, I love working out and day dreaming.

NO, my whole life is NOT biology.
I love my sciense but there are limits. I'm not the kind of a bookworm. I'm clever enough to study little and learn a lot. And if I wasn't that ill (ill, my ass..) I would propably now be at London. Studying biology. Having friends who actually know sth about the world around them and are keen on knowing ALL OF IT.
Cause I want to know all of this world. And I can't do this. I know I'm being a bitch right now and I'll regret it later, but I hate it when I am the world here. And being judged for it. I like Starbucks, I like to be stylish 24/7, I like to starve one day and binge the next, I travel to London twice a year and I get amazed each time, I'm making plans about traveling to Moscow and it never happens, I love alternative music and theaters. This is who I am. But I want some influence. I keep giving, all my friends are just copying each&every move I make, and I'm no good person. I get mad.

I'm so broken right now, I hate this body and keep hating my thoughts lately, I always mess up in relationships and I get too excited at things I know they're stupid. My sister thinks I'm not well (okay, didn't need a psychologist to tell me that, no need to have a degree my dear sister to realise this) and so does Nicole.. Boo-fucking-hoo.

Paul, I know.

Fun. Oh, fun at last!!
Last night I had a great time, I had alcohol too, so that is propably why I had soo much fun. I went with E and a guy for drinks and then we went to eat (i'll come to that) and then a huge car ride singing stupid songs and dancing in the car..

But first I have another thing to say. I got a pet fish! I thought I was too alone here in the house and needed some company. Getting a puppy was my first thought but I pictured myself cleaning all the hair and all the noise and I just freaked out! It would also be difficult when I'm out of town. So I bought a fish. The pet store was kinda scary with all the snakes and tarantulas (i swear that scary snake had its eyes on me the whole time!!). So my fish is a he. A boy. And he's red with a little blue. And he's ana. Oh God he's ana and that's so funny. He just refused to eat this morning and I was like plz plzzzz eat sth!! I sounded like my mom exept more scary cause I was begging a fish..


*So we had our drinks last night, walked a bit around the town and then they decided to eat. I was stupid enough to tell them I was hungry before so I had two potato chips with the drinks and then claimed I wasn't hungry anymore. But we went anyways. They got sth like bread with white chocolate,praline and oreo cookies..I got a lemon soda water. But then when these calorie bombs came I knew what to expect: "Oh, annaM, you should eat a bit, try it this is so perfect!, etc etc" I wanted to cry,really. So I took my fork and grabbed one oreo cookie. I ate it and I was "oh yes it is so good but I'm full now". Nobody believed me. I don't care.

..and here he is. I tried to get him to smile for you but he kept moving(swimming?) so all I got is this blah.
He says hi, though :)

I always choose bLack from white.

100 followers. Wow that is amazing! Well I don't feel like posting today, the whole locked-in-the-house-pretending-to-study thing has really made me nervous. And I don't have much to say too.

Just thank you. A LOT.

So I wanted this post to be made when I had 99 followers. You know.. my last name always gets me at the bottom of each list (alphabetically) and it was easy for me to be picked, and that was a good and bad thing. A good thing when I was chosen to join a volleyball team, a bad thing when I was the one to solve the stupid maths problem on the blackboard.
But the girl (most of the times it was a girl) who was right above me was never picked. That's why numbers like 10, 100, 1000 doesn't appeal to me much. Seems not fair. Anyway I'm actually making this post really lame and the thing I'm trying to say is that I didn't manage to make this post on the 99 cause from 98 followers I had yesterday, this morning it was 100!

Instead of making a list of things that you don't know about me, and you probably don't even care to learn (if I got braces, what food I love/hate most, where I plan to go on my honeymoon if I ever get married, etc) I decided to put some thinspo pictures. The ones I love the most. And they HAVE to be black&white. Cause minimal is all I'm asking lately.

Simple and perfect. As much as I can get. Enjoy.

Purple haze.

I couldn't get out of bed this morning. I even thought it was 11 so I was freaked out but then I realised it was 10 -which is still late for me now.

Everything around me seemed to move with the speed of sound, stupid wine last night with a empty stomach & stupid panic attack after that. Went to the scale and told to myself "okay now don't panic you know it's that time of the month when you are angry at everyone and the scale is angry at you, so be prepared".
And the scale showed 56.1 how HAPPY can I be today?? Oh, I really want to reach 55+ by this weekend. :D


Anyway I made an awesome coffee (yeah I can get pretty excited about coffees) and now I'm reading some blogs before I start Biology.
Yesterday here we had a tupical autumn afternoon, with the first huge rain and cold wind, oh I love this kind of weather!! Knitwear, coats, boots (still looking for the perfect ones). I'm thinking about online shopping sometime cause I really cannot find sth I like around here. Topshop, of course. Me and Topshop have a strong bond haha, our relationship has reached the next level, even though there aren't stores here. Of course I mean the Oxford Circus Topshop at London. True love- it never lets me down!

Boys, boys, boys..

Ha I was soo expecting that!
Boys..oh, boys. They are like little children.

I don't know if he is worth even this little space in my post. But I can't understand him. I'm better off without him when he is acting such, he texted me again (of course on facebook lol) and I didn't even bother to reply. I'm done with him and he better realise it, cause it's difficult for me too. We are so done! (repeating in order to believe it myself haha).
And it's not only my guy. My best friend's -Nicole- ex actually told her that all she was for him was a piece of flesh. I mean whaaaaaaat?? Who the hell he thinks he is? That is sth so inpolite to say. Luckily she realised what an ass he is and got over him.


Don't get me wrong, there are some quite perfect guys out there but the example of men I'm dealing with atm is so lame!

Hope you girls are surrounded by nice and polite guys who deserve you :)