What drives me insane?

And this is a condition I can't explain.. Literally I cannot. In less that 12 hours I've been feeling that range of emotions, it's driving me crazy!!! ..this morning I was a little miserable but then tried to operate my new netbook and couldn't so I started crying feeling I couldn't do anything right anymore. It's insane... Then, when Jason helped me fix this, I was feeling very calm and a few hours later I dressed up and went to starbucks to study hoping that he -the guy that works there and is so hot lol- would be there. He wasn't there unfortunatelly, but I was ok and studied for 3 hours feeling just fine. But as I was leaving I felt again so lonely;
it's so tiring all this...

Anyway I would like to confess that even though I don't smoke and propably never will, sometimes I need sth to calm me down. Then I think of alcohol.. Of course being pro-ana and a biologist, there are two thoughts on my mind: smoking kills and alcohol has so many cals it's like a sin.. So I've recently found a new addiction, a silly one you might think---> lace.

I love lace. I can spend hours trying to find the perfect lace dress, or leggings (..I haven't yet) and thinking how I can wear them with my lovely sandal heels. It's not that I'm addicted to shopping, it's just I can't do otherwise. And of course smoking is never an option. Vodka shots sometimes are but try not to drink too much..

Oh, and yoga yesterday helped me relax a little, hope it's also burning some fat because this class is written on my schedule plan for every Friday.. I recommend it*