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I feel the need to update this blog. During these past two weeks my mood swings have gone wild. I'm talking about real highs and REAL lows. This situation is energy consuming and nerve racking. Added to the pressure I've been having lately makes a super real bomb. And it feels like it's about to explode any time now.

The only good news come from my lab. My supervisor told me that I am one of the best who have been in this position through the years. That made me happy. Really happy for a while. But other than that, I've been in a quite shitty mood. G is acting really strange, even bitter some times and I was really hurt when we went to drinks on Tuesday. I don't need this shit. I know what I am, and I don't need psychotherapy and criticism from no one.

So I decided to act thinking of me, and thinking a lot lot less. I want somebody to be able to talk to, share my day and NOT someone who knows my whole past, and drinks coffe with it on a Saturday evening. It's not his fault, I know that they are his friends but it's not working any more, I worry too much if 'they' are with G, at his house. If they will show up at the bar and we will all have to sit at the same table. I worry too much so I'm going to back off. I texted another guy, who liked me and doesn't know any of them, and I will let him try to take my mind off things. It's the only solution that comes to mind.

Saturday I'm flying to London.
I truly hope I will find the happiness to do this trip some justice. Stupid brain.