Poke

I made myself a September promise. I don't get mad on Mondays. I try to stay calm and start my week nice and peacefully. Otherwise it's bad karma, no? I succeeded twice already. I just take a deep breath, smile and forget it happened. Anything that blocks my good karma can stay out of my way. Let me say here I don't believe that much in karma, though I know it can be a bitch.

I passed my genetics exam. Yeyy me! My score was low, but I can keep the pass and take it again next year. Will do. I just need the pass to take some more classes. I'm thinking of Sexually Transmitted Diseases class and In-vitro Fertilization class along with German. September's exams are not over but I don't know if they will be cancelled. I hope not, I need to pass some more. Last September I had some health problems so I failed all my classes so you see the rush, right??

In other news, grilled salmon and vegetables for lunch. So totally perfect!

ohh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sis !!

I LOVE HER*

Him again

Sunday morning. Haven't slept quite well, apparently one long island iced tea wasn't enough to knock me down. Keep thinking stuff, keep melting in my pyjamas with E sleeping next to me like everything is all good. Yes, everything is all good but I just can't sleep. Walked around the apartment, fixed my hair (4 in the morning, I'm crazy I know) and decided to open the air condition. I've had enough of sleepless nights, I deserve some sleep translated to a huge electricity bill. At least I think I do. We'll see at the end of the month.

In other news, I'm so excited at the idea of working at Barcelona next summer. In some university's lab. That would be AWESOME. I know it will, I've been once more to Barcelona and liked it very much! I love Salvador Dali, too. We will see how that goes, it's just an idea for now.

I can't wait for everything to go back to normal. For E and her sister to move in together next to me, for semester to begin, to meet new people (I would really like some guy friends), to lose some fucking weight and to start gym again. Seriously.

My Tumblr account is so beautiful. I love posting and reblogging amazing photos of people, nice quotes, animals and alternative stuff I like.

I like indian style but secretly

I would love to be a pirate..

Black latte

I have got to take my sleeping pills. I cannot spend my nights twirling at bed and watching the time every twenty minutes. I woke up rather energetic, surprisingly. Had my coffee and prepared to study. I study on the floor, I find it very powerful to sit on the floor. I feel connected to the earth, somehow. Craziness.

I made a deal with myself. No sweets for a month. I don't care if I haven't eaten for three days and all I have is ice cream, I won't eat anything sweet until October. My only treat will be sugar free jello. I only eat salad, cheese, coffee and chicken breast and I manage to screw things up with ice cream or chocolate binging.

So no.

I want my next order from Asos to have some pretty awesome things that this time I get to wear and feel great. I want to feel pretty again.

Can I tell you a secret? I don't like the fact that suddenly I became the ..second friend. I don't mean ugly, just that I was used everybody to like ME, not my friend. I'm a total bitch, I know. It just brings me down when everyone we meet likes E, even though she's got my style and copies (in a good way) my attitude. But shhh, don't tell. I am a good friend and she is too, just I find it annoying. I have to get over it, get slowly off my high horse (I guess) and feel pretty again.

And be happy for my friend, ideally.

In other news, I have a girl-crush on Mila Kunis.

Noodles.

Absolutely worthless day. Woke up with a headache -don't you just love that? Then I got a stomach-ache and then my period showed up. It was about time, I guess. I was starting to think my boobs will get bigger and bigger and then explode. Let me tell you, I don't like big boobs. I will say they look good on others, but I just can't work with them. Anyway, happy to announce that in three days I will de-bloat. Finally.

In other news, cellulite appeared. So enjoyable, every September, it's just amusing (not). It's also a reminder to get off my ass and start gym again.

Mum keeps saying I have to speak in a more calm way. Sure mum, you may be right but you chose my first day of period to bring that up? That's just wrong.

I was going to go shopping today. With E. She complains she has gained weight. Anyway, I don't know if I want to go shopping just yet. I think I'm going to wait a month to see if I can drop a size. Ideally I would want some loose V-neck shirts and some dark coloured plain casual dresses. I want a cross necklace too. Oh, and some cold weather, if I can find some.

Pretty please.

when in doubt, total black is the answer.

I love her. nuffsaid

MaxiSkirt*

Hectic day, really. Woke up at 8.30 and made a wonderful coffee. I liked it so much that on 10 I made another one. Lately the days don't end up how they are intended to. I guess now these two coffees and another one later were really helpful.

Let me explain. We had a meeting. Me and other 80 people. At the university, at 3pm. I left the hot, smoky room at 7.30pm after four and a half hours of talking and listening. Exhausted as I was, with only three coffees in my stomach and one peach juice, I went for drinks and then games. I had some grilled vegetables with goat cheese somewhere between. Now I'm finally in bed, lying happily..

Some of you may wonder what happened to my exams. Good question. Yes, indeed I had an exam tomorrow but it got cancelled because of that meeting. I don't even know when I will have it. I am a little relieved cause it's a difficult exam and with the panic attacks and all I spent so little time with my books.

I also feel weird about something. BUT it's all about skinny and smiling

SMILING, right?

Have a great night and a wonderfully happy month :)